When I take my last breathe….

Firstly, I am truly sorry to my family that I walked away from because at the time the drugs were all I needed. People often talk about what they lost due to addiction, but for me its not the case. I had everything, family friends and a life worth living. worked two jobs. however unfortunately... Continue Reading →

Life with Schizoaffective disorder

My name is Emily and I have schizoaffective disorder (bipolar type) For a long time I didn't know what was going on with me. I kept having paranoid thoughts, always scared thinking people are after me. Suicidal daily. Psychosis followed me. I've lived with this for five years asking myself what the hell was wrong... Continue Reading →


Hey everyone, hope you've been well. This post may be triggering by some viewers I've overdosed a few times now on heavy drugs. As mentioned in previous blogs I started using meth straight out of a bubbler. Very dangerous. My tolerance was high from the start. Most times I wanted to die but instead I... Continue Reading →

Drug Addiction

As most of you know by my blogs, I struggle with addiction. The first time I ever used hard drugs- I smoked it out of a bubbler, in other words my drug tolerance was high from the start. I was done with drugs, I went to rehab. I was seven months sober. My life was... Continue Reading →

Hopeless addict

I think my purpose in life is to guide and show others the way of life. I have mental health and addiction experience under my belt, and I feel the need to reach as many people as possible and show my love, support, and unconditional encouragement. Most addicts have no one to turn to when... Continue Reading →

Addiction is a disease

I'm sorry for my absence, been going through a difficult time with this disease called addiction. I relapsed on my seven month birthday, and had a few relapses since then. At first I was really ashamed and wasn't fully truthful to those around me, let alone even myself. I have been reassured that it is... Continue Reading →

Resentments- trigger warning!

This blog is very difficult to share and may be triggering to some readers. This topic was brought up by studying the big book alcoholcs annonymous. In the fourth step you must do a moral inventory of yourself and make emends to those who have hurt you, or whom youve hurt. so here we go...... Continue Reading →

Pipe down

I finally put the pipe down offically on june 16th 2020.... As most of you known I am a recovering drug addict. The drug of choice is mostly crystal meth, however later on in my addiction journey, I was also known to snort cocaine, smoke crack, and crush and snort oxycotin . There wasn't one... Continue Reading →

living life on lifes term….

when it comes to recovery we must learn to live life on lifes terms, to me that means letting go and letting god. I have admitted that I am powerless over all mood altering substances. I have a hard time letting go of my problems and allowing a higher power to take charge of my... Continue Reading →

A new way of life

This year last year I was in ICU for three days and in the spych ward for another couple days after sighning out christmas night. I was so sick of my life, I was a drug addict who was hopeless, I was sick, emotionally and physically. I had thought I was at the end of... Continue Reading →

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